Milkboys, Inside the Carton

It’s odd… I feel like I’m being reborn right now, as time goes on things change, along with my way of thinking. My moms co-workers seem to have forgotten about my homosexuality already and no ones mentioned it, she’s started to give me access to the truck while my dad gives me money for gas / food, After I came back some friends talked to me and I ended up driving us to a nearaby lake on Thursday… It was amazing and I loved every second, even though I don’t consider all of them my true friends, I loved it for the friends I do have and the hillarious and amazing time we had. I scared away a guy who joined our group because he heard I was gay but I didn’t care, he reminded me of someone I didn’t like in highschool. Oh and the driving was amazing, We ended up racing a soccer-mom in a van (we raped her face :P), she flipped us off and I honestly just felt like matching her speed… I could of gone wayyy faster, ah well my friends still gave me props for showing off however unintentional it was. We whent again today (Friday) and ended up packing 7 people into my truck, 3 up front and 4 in the back (Keep in mind the front has 2 seats with no room between really, while the back has 2 smaller seats and a small amount of space inbetween), I felt sorry yet so humorous whenever I took a sharp turn or pulled a retard move (Such as rave dancing to Everytime We Touch (Cascada) and… according ot jesse at least… nearly running off the road). Oh and this girl got obsessed with me, awesome rack and body, smoked though, and I’m gay (Yes I can still rate girls :P), she never found out but it made me laugh rather then feel amorous when I held her while jumping into the water or let her ride on my back / stomach as I swam back to shore. I look noticeably darker now too :). Well overall… I feel a lot more outdoor orientated and it makes me happy… Oh and I also forgot to mention my computer at home is now completely dead, I’m amazed it lasted this long. It’s currently impossible to get to even the login screen without blue screening, and there’s no available system restore points and startup repair always ends up crashing so ahh well, 2000$ down the drain but I heard a rumour my moms considering buying a new laptop for me so I have increased chances of graduating this school year (7.5 credits to go, and my school offers 7 classes per semester at .5 credits each… so i need to find a way to make .5 extra credits and pass all my classes, or make 1.5 extra credits…) Sorry for the long post but… this is just how I feel now :). Also I haven’t seen Nick since last saturday, I hope he’s doing fine too… and I love him, but I honestly do believe if I find someone good I wouldn’t think twice about d.. that’s a lie… but I really don’t know if I can love him the same after him dumping me… after he woke up crying from a dream of me dumping him and I promised I’d never dump him… after asking me if I’d marry him if he proposed to me… after everything (Shit I’m crying in public). I got propositioned for sex from an extremely good looking 18 year old the night before my computer died, I felt so numb I invited him over… he was waiting out front my house while I talked to one of my good friends on msn and I finally decided against it… he drove off incredibly fast, And I’m so glad I resisted the temptation… sex can be fun but… I want it to be intimate… between me and someone I love… when we’re comfortable with it. Love Love Love, Me Me Me, Extrovertive old Will <3 <3 <3, Later!