Milkboys, Inside the Carton

Well tonight I had another all nighter at the game place! All night playing video games… I was looking forward to Wesley (a very cute yet semi shy redhead I met there months ago) who said he’d likely be coming and was adamant I had to spend the entire night with him (Like I was complaining :P), sadly he didn’t show up and I was rather annoyed that Nick was going as it made me sad to see him not knowing why he dumped me and caused me to lose faith in love. Thankfully Spencer Strickland came, one of my close friends I’ve known for a long time who I generally only talk to on xbox live… which I haven’t played in months therefore we have lost touch. He’s rather unique, to anyone who isn’t aquainted with him he’d appear a egotistical jerk, but once you get to know him he’s quite humorous and fun… not to mention beautiful and sly. (Also I believe he’s a closeted homosexual or bisexual). Apparently Spencer has a past with Nick.. a bad one… he whent on about how in middle school Spencer and a large group of other people used to make fun of Nick all the time for liking Naruto (an anime), really not a good reason whatsoever but adolescents always need someone to torment, even if it’s just for being themselves. I’m assuming it was to give me comfort for Nick dumping me but Spencer ended up walking over to Nick and logging him off his computer and harrasing him about his past in middle school and being gay until he left so me and spencer could sit by eachother. I felt so bad I ended up buying Nick KFC and hugging him… Thankfully another friend had brought some Whisky to the all nighter and after some liquid courage I started to talk to Nick about how I still loved him and wanted to know why he dumped me… turned out he was scared because of our sex life, he wanted to be together again but to take it slow as he dosen’t want it to be about sex rather then love (My fears exactly).

And now lifes a blur of happiness again, the only thing annoying me is a crush on Spencer that’s been strengthened, tonight he seemed abnormally homosexual, and he didn’t even defend himself when I brought up how he always hints towards it like how he mentioned that if he was gay that he’d never tell anyone and would deny it, or that he’d never come out of the closet. at times we even ended up in intimate positions randomly such as when I forced him to stay in his chair with me on top of him after he poured a salt packet on Nick, or after he made fun of Nick behind the game place I wrestled him to the ground and I’m not quite sure we weren’t cuddling on the ground for a good 3 minutes. Finally towards the end of the night we were holding hands in a gridlock for dominance and the look in his eyes was adorable and reminded me of a lovestruck … me! :P. I’m wondering if he’s going to finally come out of the closet… it’d be great having another homosexual friend between nick and me! And well… Spencers always been a dream guy of mine with his attitude which meshes oh so well with mine, even if he has been mean to Nick… He’s been a good person to me the entire time I’ve known him :).