It’s odd… I feel like I’m being reborn right now, as time goes on things change, along with my way of thinking. My moms co-workers seem to have forgotten about my homosexuality already and no ones mentioned it, she’s started to give me access to the truck while my dad gives me money for gas [...]
Sorry for the lack of decent posts of late, this family troubles been incredible and… Through a display of force… I’m finally getting my social life back :P. On the plus side I had some interaction with the neighborhood kids and someone I’ve yet to talk of on this blog…. and this kid really has [...]
My moms work friends found out I’m gay because my moms lesbian friend let it slip… She’s not giving me any money now… I’m just stuck at home… No more going to the game place I work at… I can’t get a job because I’d have no way to get there.. not allowed to use [...]
Well tonight I had another all nighter at the game place! All night playing video games… I was looking forward to Wesley (a very cute yet semi shy redhead I met there months ago) who said he’d likely be coming and was adamant I had to spend the entire night with him (Like I was [...]
I need someone to talk to right now… I Feel like I’m becoming a mess with these arguements between my mother and me…. There’s been two other familys in the past year that have expressed their willingness to take me in and adopt me as well as their love for me but my mother always [...]
Ya know I said I’ve given up on it, but it only takes until you meet someone new that you fall for that it comes back again. Well I’ve known this guy for a while, he’s probably the shyest person at the gameplace I work at. He makes me feel warm inside and happy. I [...]
This is a comment someone posted me… it’s one of the things that inspires me is that I know if I stay openly gay, and provide a positive example then perhaps it’ll make another GBLT persons life better…. though it’s not just for them I want to make life better it’s for everyone. My best [...]
Ya know, I could move to Texas and be with my sister… I could be closeted and be one of those beautiful popular people, I know how to manipulate people in all the right ways, perhaps that’s how I made a large number of homophobes homo-tolerant / friendly? I could play sports with people… I [...]
And it’s continuance…. I’m just in far too bad of a negative mood, this will be my 2nd or third day just staying at home all day sleeping. Whenever I hear the sound of a basketball bounceing I know tylers outside, I look… and I see him and his friends playing in the park… I [...]
Today was really… something relieving, I woke up and had a easy morning… I didn’t even remember how horrible the last few days have been. The shower felt great, the perfect outfit was right by each other in my dresser, and I air dried my hair in the car instead of wasting half an hour [...]
